The Symmetry Scandal

Ever since I heard of this concert I wanted to go there, Play! A Video Game Symphony.
They always toured in the U.S.A. so that was kind of hard to reach ^^ This year they are coming to Copenhagen, when I saw that I decided that I would go, make a weekend out of it. It's after my birthday so my financial situation should be a bit better as well.

But the funny part, I'm gonna combine this now to visit Aske as well, going to the concert together and enjoying ourselves ^^
Coincidence :)

Really looking forward to the concert itself. On the latest shows Akira Yamaoka played A song, wich is one of my fav songs in the Silent Hill series. http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=EJ38UUXjQDw I really hope he will be there, I so love the games because of the great music!

Ok, well that's enough of my fangirl addictions ><
<3<3<3 AKIRA YAMAOKA!!!! <3<3<3

Ok, I'm on a roll here >< have a lot to post :P
Yesterday I had a bit of an emo-rant day, sorry for that to the people who listend and thanks for all your support ;) But back on topic.

In friendships/relationships a lot can go wrong, this is a known fact. But what I don't understand is when people suddenly dissapear.
Just out of nowhere no contact. Last words in a conversation "We need to have more contact, I'm sick so I'm going home from work, I'll be on msn later today. Talk to you soon, xxx missed you!" That was 26th of june and I haven't heard a thing since. I know he's alive but that's about it.
I can understand if a friendship is over after a fight or something happening, but this is just so weird.

Would just like to speak to him to know why. That's all :P

I just got offered a contract for a year. I should be _so_ excited.. but I'm not :S
Basically I have a dream job, I don't have to do much, can read some books and if my boss isn't here. I can even bring my laptop and play some games or watch some series/movies.

Who wouldn't want that right? well.. me...
It all sounds awesome and yay but I need a more rewarding job to be honest. I come home tired, from doing nothing. My brain just stops working from reading damn gossip sites and playing flash games.

meh, I feel spoiled for not being happy about this, a lot of people would kill for this job, just right now I'm at a stage of "what the hell to do with my life?" I want to study, but study what? My dream was always to leave Holland someday, live/work abroad but with the study I had in mind I can't really work in another country. Lot of people say, just stay in Holland! but well, I'm always picking men in other country's too, so meh..

Why isn't stuff like this more easy? I'm all confused :(

My dad surprised me by taking me to Denmark for the weekend, by car, wich was quite an adventure ^^
We left Amsterdam on friday at 17.00 and arrived in Aalborg at 03.00 in the morning, we picked up Aske and tried to look for a hotel but every hotel/hostel was full because of a... Tupperware Convention.. Yes, I'm deadserious... >< We booked a hotel for the next night (Hotel Scheelsminde) so we decided to just go there and see if a room would be free early.
At 12.00 we could go into our rooms, finally a bed!!! We decided to take a shower first wich turned out to be a bit funny, with the shower head tumbling down all the time. Slept for a few hours and then went to the center of Aalborg to eat. Had some really yummy nacho chips with chicken and molten cheese. Oh and the lovely guacamole.. sooo yum :P

Back at the hotel we wanted to try the swimming pool but since we didn't bring our swimming clothes we had to use underwear etcn *angel* Turned out it was quite busy at that time so we went for a walk instead.
There were some senior gardens (volkstuintjes) and we stole a lot of yummy apples from the trees and some cherries (wich were a bit sour, but I loved it ^^)
On sunday we woke up early to try the swimming pool again, was very cold at first, but a good wake up at 8.00 :P After the icy pool we went into the sauna. I'm not a big fan of the sauna, I prefer the Turkish Steambaths (spelling?) But I quite enjoyed it for once. It wasn't that hot and actually stayed in for 30 mins or more :o
After we left the hotel we went to Egholm, an island next to Aalborg. We walked in the woods a bit and sat down on the beach where some red ants bit me :'(
We went back to the centre of Aalborg to drink something, we played a game of Yahtzee, wich I won yay! I learned to play chess, altho I sucked :P

At 18.00 my dad and me left again for Holland, shame it was so short, but it was worth it. Loved Aalborg, really nice place and would like to explore more of it. Loved the company, but that is kinda obvious. Looking forward to something like this again.

The nine ("nava") emotional states ("rasa") that are exhibited during music, drama, and the visual arts, the experience of which bring about a state of transcendental bliss.

As I still (very casual) play WoW with some friends of mine we decided to switch servers, when some old Symmetry members heard that we would be leaving, they wanted to come with us. Since we suddenly were with more then a guild would take in at once we decided to start up our own little guild. It won't be used for hardcore raiding, just some casual play with friends.
I'm very happy with this decision since I really missed the people from Symmetry and playing with them.
We started thinking of a name and a lot liked Navaras because of the meaning behind it. Juno Reactor has a song called Navras, wich is used in the Matrix movies. I loved the song so I looked up the meaning of Navras and tadaaa guildname was born.

Juno Reactor - Navras


asato ma sad gamaya
tamaso ma jyotir gamaya
mrutyor ma amrtam gamaya

From ignorance lead me to truth
From darkness lead me to light
From death lead me to immortality

Ok, yes, I know, I have been slacking with my blog, but meh, I will start again soon ;)

In the mean while, I was fiddling around with my cam to upload some video's on youtube, so I was singing etc and then _this_ happened...




enjoy!

edit: Note one of my t-shirts! They arrived! will make pictures of the other ones as well.

From the 10th till the 20th I had my summer vacation and I had very nice company I must say ^^
Friend of mine, Aske, was coming over from Denmark to visit me for 10 days, the start was a bit crappy since there was something wrong with the flight and he had to catch the flight at 7 in the morning the next day, leaving him to "sleep" at the airport so instead I had a friend of mine come over to watch some One Tree Hill, some awesome series wich I'm totally addicted to. next morning (I slept for 10 mins ><) I went to pick him up from the airport and we both looked like ghosts, we said hi, went to my place and went to bed, but not being able to sleep :P
We did kiss tho *blush*

The next day I went to the concert of Leonard Cohen, already wrote about that in my last post, was so amazing. In october he plays in Berlin and I'm going there with my mum, making a weekend out of it. He also announced a new concert in Rotterdam in november, checking if i can go there.. aswell xD (I'm not a groupie.. honest!!) Oh and I want to try and get to the Play Concert wich is in Copenhagen, but it would be SO cool to see that live..

Anyway, I'm drifting off a bit, wanted to tell about my awesome vacation in Amsterdam! (playing tourist, whoohoo!) On sunday we went to visit the centre of Amsterdam, seeing the canals, going into little streets, ate some ice cream at Tofani's and went to Kung Fu Panda (lovely movie!!) It was fun to walk in Amsterdam like this, seeing places and things you would normally not notice because it's all "normal" to me, living here.
We went to the Bijlmer and the Amsterdam Arena, home of Ajax! we biked all the way to Oudekerk aan de Amstel, wich was very nice, except that I burned and the wind wasn't nice to us on our way back >< We had BBQ on my balcony, wich was quite fun, never did that before. (ofc I over ate xD)
Thursday Ruud and Bart came over and we walked a bit in the centre again, trying to find a gift for Ruud, since it was his birthday the next day. (seriously, can't you take a hint..?!) We got him this awesome Warcraft book, very nice, very jealous... :P
Next day we went to Artis, the zoo, was really fun, didn't go there for a long time and was good to see it all again. In the evening we got a surprise visit from my Soesie, Renée, with wine!! We drank a bit to much (since 2 bottles with 3 people wasn't enough we HAD to buy more, you understand that, right? :P) and played some Munchkin.
The rest of the week the weather was quite bad, so we just stayed in and played some Serious Sam campaign (almost finished it!) and I kicked his ass in Halo 3 <3

Had a really great vacation without even traveling somewhere AND I met this great guy, yay for me :P

WOW just.. wow...
They guy is 73 and he just put the most amazing show up ever.
He really loves what he does and you see and hear that, He sang for 3 hours, 10 min break and it was just amazing.. can't tell anything more, looking now for a show in Germany, hoping they have tickets, wanna go more.. mooore MOOOREEE.... :D

Leonard Cohen - I'm your man (Live world tour 2008)

Next saturday I will go to the Leonard Cohen concert @ Westerpark Amsterdam. It's not exactly music someone of my age would listen to, I got in contact with it through funerals.. I love his music, It has meaning and for me it even has added meaning.

My mum and me decided to go since it is something we share and I felt really great at going, just recently there has been some shit going on and I'm a bit.. emotional. Point is, when I am, I can't really listen to his music since all the added thoughts come up and I can't keep it dry.
I'm really looking forward to this, but at the same time I'm scared.. YAY ><

Leonard Cohen - Waiting for the Miracle (Extended version)

Ok, help me decide!!
Ruud and me are gonna order some shirts a J!nx and I can't decide.. duh -.-
I want to buy 2 shirts. already made my mind up about one, since it is SO cool :P
I fight like a girl.

Then there are a "few" I'm still doubting about. wich one is best for me? :D
- I love my gamer (Don't have one yet, but I'll find one!)
- I love my geek (same as above ;))
- Talk nerdy to me (need I say more?)
- RUN AWAY!!!
- Priest (Urgi! <3)
- Level ?? Humanoid

As you can see I seriously need your help ;)

EDIT: narrowed it down :D ./proud
- I love my gamer
- RUN AWAY!!!

Ok here is some more music ^^
This is Utada Hikaru, her song Simple and Clean was used for Kingdom Hearts (Japanese version is called Hikari) and it's simply amazing. Last night I found this live version wich gave me chills.



And as it happens with youtube, you check the related stuff as well :P
I found her version of Greenday's Boulevard of Broken Dreams, man.. she has got this awesome voice, she can make everything work.



Isn't she cute with the talking in front? <3

Halo.. Master Chief.. his voice...
I know not a lot of girls play this game but I happen to like it and yes.. Master Chief does have a rather.. yummy voice :P
I was strolling around on IMDB and came to halo, got curious who did the voice of Master Chief (I know, I know, a bit late after 3 games, no?).
The guy is called Steve Downes and he looks like this.

Can I go sob in the corner now? ><

Already gave this to some friends and family but what the hell.. Why not embarrass myself more!?



there we go!

Want to sing this one as well, I know I can't even get near her level, damn she is good <3



So I will just hide once more :P

Ok so today I was in Almere and.. I saw him there... so cute.. so.. sexy...
I walked to the other side, trying to forget him.. But I kept glancing in his direction..

Click here for more about him..

./sigh I'm in love... :D

Last saturday was my mums party. Good and bad things to say about it.

It was a shame that the football match between Russia and Holland was on the same day, so my mum planned it that we ate at 7, or started then and then people could watch the game at 8.45 and after we could come back to enjoy some drinks etc.
Few people misread the invitation so they turned up at 8. Wich resulted in rushing through the food and people watching the game.
after that there was another 30 minutes extra because Holland was simply playing dramatically. So at around 11 pm everyone was done with the football (and I mean really done, Russia won.) so at 12 pm people started leaving again, wich was a bit of a shame.

for myself, after working quite hard on friday and saturday to get this all going and in between not nearly enough sleep, i got a bit pissed at people coming late and probably drank a bottle of rose even before dinner. It was really unlike me, since I dont drink that much. Thank god I didn't feel drunk though :) What did get to me was that i was really tired.. I didn't talk to a lot of people and only wanted to go to bed :P

It sounds all really negative, but it was an awesome party, just was to damn tired and that stupid game ruined a bit of fun.
But then again, will not try and organise this big of a party anytime soon :P

Gerudo Valley - Zelda



Song of Storms / Windmill song - Zelda



My all-time favorite!!!!
Animal Crossing Wild World Theme <3

This weekend I went to Barry and Joyce in Almere and Ruud came over from Almelo. Unfortunately Mr Feor/Joost couldn't make it due to the flu.
Since Joyce and me are always cooking/baking we decided to try a yummy recipe this time. We made "Chocolate Heaven Cake" and I bought some pink icing from Thomas Green (English store).
Since us four were all from my old guild Symmetry we wanted to write something funny on it, then we remembered our lovely "Manmeat" thread on the forums and how all the guys wanted to see our boobs. SO we decided to give them just that... in icing ;)

It was a great weekend, with all the darkrooms and jokes :) Hope that Mr. Carebear can be there next time as well, missed you there!

P.S. the cake did not only look stunning (boobs huh?) but it tasted awesome as well, gonna make it for my mum's birthday saturday ;) (no boobs!)

21st of june my mum is throwing her (2nd) 50th birthday party!
It's her birthday on the 9th of december but since she wanted a garden party she decided not to celebrate it then, since thats a bit cold xD, but in the summer. So William (her boyfriend) and me decided that was bullshit and threw her a surprise party in december and in 2 weeks, she will throw her own party :)

My uncle lives on a farm and the party will be held there and it's a lot of planning involved. Because of my mum's health she doesnt have the energy a "normal" person has, so she started planning a while ago and asked some people to help her in the process. I took the day before the party off from work so I can help her with cooking etc. On the day itself I'm going there early to help set up and more cooking. But now... I'm in charge of music!! I'm so happy, love music :D

So I thought, 50th birthday, she wants to dance.. I downloaded all the Tour of Duty cd's (anyone remember them? :P) and my mum was fiddling around on youtube to see what she liked. We got a whole list, from Chris Isaak to Dolly Parton to Gerudo Valley from Zelda (YES!!!) and now it's my job to get them all on cd's ^^

Looking forward to the party, at least I know the music will be good ;)

It seems that every few years I need to change things or something, what is that? Am I running away from something?
Few years ago I kinda stopped seeing all my friends from school. I needed change, I was stuck. Got back in contact with two of them, wich is good, I'm happy about that.
Sometimes it just feels as if I'm running, running from people, running from things wich are good. If you get to attached it will hurt when it's over. or something...

In an earlier blog I told you I wanted to switch to studying again next year, well I decided to do that later since I don't want this to fail, I need more time to think. I need to make the right decision for once :P

Two or three weeks ago I broke up with Olli, we were together for 1.5 years, It hurts, it's weird and it's life. We have to go on and that is what I'm doing. I'm enjoying my free time, wich I have without my guild and without a boyfriend.

It just starts to feel that every 2/3 years I need changes, I don't want changes, I want my thoughts to settle down.

Song wich is in my head the last few weeks, Damien Rice - 9 Crimes (thanks volc ;)) with a WoW Machinima wich is simply beautifull.

Dali is in heat.. a.k.a. horny...
She is drving me and Sibbe up the walls! Every time Sibbe walks by she brushes her ass against him, whining noise...
One time she has sibbe to try stuff, just Sibbe being without balls, he didnt quite understand and just started kicking her, wich was quite funny to see ^^ After that Sibbe kinda ignores her, but hey, so do a lot of guys! he just used Dali! (or was it the other way around? xD)
Just hope it won't take THAT long and I have to start saving to get her some snipsnip as well :P